Sunday, May 31, 2015

Don't read if easily offended

Nothing really profound to say today. At least I don't think so. And if you are easily offended you might want to stop reading now. 

We started our walk from Santo Domingo from the Cistercian monastery/albergue where we spent the night. It was the least expensive, with the least amenities that I have stayed so far. But still very nice. As I stopped in the shoe room to grab my shoes I noticed an unopened pkg of tissue on the floor. "A gift from God" I thought because I keep forgetting to buy them and my nose runs constantly on the camino. I picked it up and pocketed it. 

We stopped for breakfast and I saw a woman I have seen several time asked her how her walk was going and she said she was done, going home. Her mother is dying and she thought she could handle it but no. I told her I was praying for strength and peace for her as we left. We were on the road by 7 am. 

Several of us are still nursing blisters so we trudged slowly out of town. I wasn't 3/4 of a mile to the next town (which was 4 miles away) when I realized I had to go to the bathroom. It wasn't  like Montezuma's revenge hitting but it was a pressing need. Suddenly my feet were not a problem and I picked up the pace. I prayed, "dear God let me make it" no bargains I know better than that. As I came into town there was a pig farm and the smell was tremendous. I vowed no more ham and cheese sandwiches. I prayed again , "dear God please let me make it" I did. But there was a line. "Oh please hurry pilgrims and don't have the same problem I do!!" Well I will spare you details. I stepped out of the coffee bar as my friends arrived. I drank a coke and they orange juice. 

We hadn't left the village when I was standing in line again.  And when it was my turn there was no toilet paper. But I had a gift from God a whole pkg of tissue. "Thank you God!!" Whew!! Okay!! I thought I was all better. So here we go...Out of town down a hill...oh crap (sorry mom!) here it comes again. It's 2 1/2 miles to the next town I won't make it. There was a side road. I dropped my pack ran down the road and "took care of business". Now all better! Let's try again...My friends were slowly walking ahead to keep me in view. 

A couple of turns in the road this can't be happening again!!!!  Surely the town is only 1 mile more. No I won't make it. Look behind. No one around. No. It's not the same. I fall to my knees and throw up...once, twice. There I am on the camino kneeling, "dear God!! Give me strength!!" I thought of Deena her mother dying..."lord give her strength!" I pulled myself to my feet with my walking sticks. Okay. Once again all better. 

Made it through the next town and to the next but had to run in to the tourist office bathroom. (From strength to strength or bathroom to bathroom) in this case. And no toilet paper. No plastic in the trash can. Ugh. But I had tissue...a gift from God. At this point I'm wondering!! Some gift!!! As I come out of the bathroom there are my friends ready to walk with me. 

One of the French women had medicine for me. The next village was only 2 miles. Made that. Next 3 more. We will stop for lunch. Well they will stop for lunch. I will get a coke. And run up the stairs to the bathroom. Hallelujah this one has toilet paper and a plastic bag in the trash!! (It's the little things!!)

Marie has a powder to give me. She describes it as gross. I think it tastes like vanilla in my water. But perhaps by now I'm delirious. They all tell me to make sure I keep drinking so I don't end up in the hospital. 

After that last episode and whatever medicine Marie gave me I was fine. I got sunburned. Was hot. Tired. And walked by the time of this post 18.48 miles today. And know that I'm well cared for by family and friends at home (that I dearly miss) and new friends that I have met here but also this God I keep tripping into through people, creation, beauty, goodness...

On the first day a man asked me if I had experienced any signs. And I told him about the sign in the road that said stay left. I saw tissue paper today and picked it up...it was a sign that sometimes a day can be kind of poopy or worse but even in weak moments, down on your knees in ditches throwing up moments, I believe even on these days strength is given...sometimes through a friend, sometimes through a sign, sometimes through nature, sometimes in the very weakness itself...and that's how I "tripped" into grace today. 

Saturday, May 30, 2015

Walking Through the Pain into Grace

Today I started with the phrase walking through the pain, walking in the pain. 

We stayed in Najera last night. It would have been a fun city to explore. It was on the river. But after 31 kms/19 miles I was pooped. And I got sick. Must have been dehydrated. 

I was in bed by 7. 

This morning we ate breakfast and we started out of the city. I was once again limping along. Liliane and Joelle were walking with me. Joelle was also having issues with her feet. We wee walking "slowly but surely" (French accent) because Joelle said it. 

We immediately had to climb out of the city. Uphill is actually easier than downhill. I started my mantra: "walking through the pain, walking in the pain." Once again the rhythm of my steps and the click of my walking sticks kept the phrase going...walking through the pain, walking in the pain. If you try you can hear it in your head...walking through the pain, walking in the pain. 

I thought of my grandmother who had rheumatoid arthritis from the time she was 20 and yet birthed three children, buried one of them...walking through the pain, walking in the pain. My other grandmother who lost her husband when he was young and never seemed bitter but rather was faithful and gracious...walking through the pain, walking in the pain. 

I thought of people who have debilitating diseases yet inspire others with their perseverance and grace...walking through the pain, walking in the pain. 

I thought of people in countries torn apart by war and violence; those plagued by disease; those overwhelmed by natural disaster...walking through the pain, walking in the pain. 

I thought of people out of work, out of food, no place to live. Those with too much. More work than they need. More food than they can eat. More houses than the can live in...walking through the pain, walking in the pain. 

I thought of people overcome by hatred, anger, hurt, disappointment, loneliness...just walking through through the pain, walking in the pain. 

That and a little bit of laughter with Liliane and Joelle got me through my 15 miles today. And made it another good day;)

So today. I walked through pain into grace. 

Day 9 photos Part 2

Pilgrim Sillies!!
Beautiful 
Relaxing

Day 9 photos part 1

Leaving Najera. 

In the shadow of many pilgrims we walk. 

The road stretches out before us...
First caffe con leche stop
The scenery today was just beautiful!
And we go up and down. I prefer uphill still. 

Friday, May 29, 2015

Day 8 photos Part 2


And down we go through a city..,


Is that all??? (I started with 790 Km's)



Just a few more kilometers...


Sure...put a smile on your face and walk...that's what you came to do!!!

Okay but next time seriously consider cycling at least part of it????



Yes I talk to myself a lot!!!!



Day 8 photos part 1


This is the map view of the walk today. 

As we started this morning out of Logrono. 
Tired feet on the way. 
At one point we were on the far side of that lake. Then walked around it and up...







Limping into Grace

Today's mantra was Lord, give healing, give hope. 

We started out from Logrono this morning very slowly because I was limping so badly. Between the blisters and the question of whether I injured my toe when I slipped on the path the second day I hobbled out of Logrono. After we got out town our group split up with the understanding that we would try to meet up again later but we had our phones. 

I traveled slowly today. And with each click of my walking sticks on the ground the mantra came 
Left click: "bring healing"
Right click: "bring hope"
Then prayers. I thought of people and places, names and faces came to mind. And as each did I prayed. 
Left click: "bring healing"
Right click: "bring hope"
All day long as I limped along I prayed...
Left click: "bring healing"
Right click: "bring hope"   
Sometimes specifically, sometimes just generally for healing and hope...it seemed to me that I was walking along  all of us need some sort of healing in some part of our life. And I know we are all desperate for hope...
Left click: "bring healing"
Right click: "bring hope"

So for 20 miles between Logrono and Najera I prayed for healing and hope as I limped into grace. 

Thursday, May 28, 2015

Day 7 photos


I realize that photos will be out of order but still trying to charge my camera. 
Leaving Los Arcos

Torres Del Rio
In Viana

Coming into Logrono 

Thank you for being patient

Today's word is patience. I started the day realizing how much I needed to pray. 

I started to utter the words Lord help me. But something stopped me. And instead the word patience was in my head and my heart. It was coming out of my mouth out loud. Fortunately I was walking alone. I spent much of today walking alone. But when I did walk with people it was encouraging and in many ways still silent because of language barriers. 

My prayer ended up being:

God, thank you for being patient with me. 
Teach me to accept it. 

God, thank you for the patience others have for me. May I receive it graciously. And may it continue. 

God, help me to be patient with myself. And when I am not give me space, and time and grace to forgive myself. 

God, help me in that forgiveness of myself and in your patience of me and in others' patience of me to be patient with others...those who are cruel as well as those who are kind for you do not seem to distinguish. 

I realized the words became a mantra for me today. And in it was a gift. Patience is just that...a gift that come with forgiveness which begins in one's own heart...and yet at times seems so daunting. But when it did for me today I started back at the beginning...


God, thank you for being patient with me. 
Teach me to accept it. 

God, thank you for the patience others have for me. May I receive it graciously. And may it continue...

...I will continue to do that. 

Today was an amazing day. 

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Part two Day 5 Camino Tripping into Grace


Not sure what as growing but so cool


The weather/temperature changed in a flash today. It would be cold and five minutes later it would be hot. Mostly Copland pleasant in the 60s
What was supposed to be a flat route according to a local was anything but...


However it was beautiful and exhilarating!
New vistas around each corner 


And lots of love...


The Way is always marked if you watch for the signs...
And strangely I keep seeing white horse. 
The last picture is coming home from dinner last night. Apparently we hadn't had enough steep incline and declines

Part one of Day 5

Traveling with St James
Starting the day out of Puente de la Reina 


Apparently there are lots of swans in the area. Not sure just what I a told. 


Out of the city city across the 
bridge. 
Pilgrim's leave things along the Way 
No real explanation 
One of the city's along today's walk

Day 4 pictures Camino


As we started out of Pamplona this morning. 


Traveling the Way!


Windmills and wheat...

Zariquiegui-San Andres


The long road up the Alto del Perdon 


"You mean you can ride a bicycle?"


Tears of joy and sadness as I was coming to this place. I sat in a bench and contemplated this for atone. Wow!!! And it was like Pentecost. Between the windmill noise and the wind blowing it was Pentecost! Cone holy spirit. Move!!!

I think I said live is everywhere!! 
 I have another blog post started about all the rocks. 



Shells lead us where we need to go!



Pilgrim art and a tired, hungry pilgrim being silly. 


Tired feet!

But how better to trip into grace?