It hasn’t been 48 hours since I returned from my trip to
Spain and walking the Camino. And in some ways it doesn’t feel like I have been
gone at all. It almost feels like a dream.
Lindsay commented to me yesterday that she didn’t want me to
get to the point where the trip didn’t seem like it had happened. She commented
that the time I was gone seemed so long while I was gone but now that I am home it doesn’t feel like it was
that long at all.
It is a strange feeling to look forward to something for so
long and then suddenly to be looking back at it instead. And yet some of my
great photos from the Camino are when I stopped and looked back where I had walked;
where I had been so far and pondered the beauty.
I believe that is what I will do with the Camino—I will look
back at where I have been—the new friends I have met from all over the world,
the beauty of creation, the steps and more steps that made up each day, the
deep listening—look back hold on to where I have been and those that journeyed
with me both physically and spiritually, but…
…But as in any journey, trip, adventure—one must also look
at how it informs where you are. Perhaps this is particularly true of a
pilgrimage that has spiritual significance. And this will take time and daily practice to continue to
listen deeply, watch for signs, and journey into grace, inviting others to
travel with me.
I know that I am slower than when I left two months ago. Not
so much in how fast I walk, or run, or ride my bike, or drive my car (though
that will probably be true as well) but slower in my jumping to conclusions,
slower in passing judgment, slower to hang on to things that eliminate joy—slower.
And in some ways I am quicker, or at least trying to be—quicker
to listen and just listen, quicker to see beauty in the mundane, quicker to sit
quietly and ponder…
But the real adventure perhaps in looking back—experiencing
things again and again—is to turn around and look out on the horizon to see
where the journey continues, to have the courage to take those steps—while
still living in the present and holding on to where you have been.
So many of you have reached out and welcomed me home. You
are kindly giving me some space to get settled back in, I am grateful. And
despite the challenges that come with being gone this long and the work that
demands my presence I am trying to realize all that has happened not only to me
but to all those I care about as well. And this will take me some time—to share
my stories, to hear your stories, and to somehow blend them together.
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